Me

I have acne. And it really bothers me.

Ever since the age of around 8-9 I have had acne. Around the age of 8 I started to get very mild occasional breakouts which has worsen as I have aged. I don't think I have particularly severe acne although it is still very noticeable and difficult.

Loads of people who don't suffer from skin conditions, such as acne, dry skin and eczema, don't understand how sensitive how sensitive the topic is and can be very hurtful without meaning to be.

I have watched several videos on skincare saying that something is wrong with me or making out that  people like me haven't taken good care of our skin and could've prevent it, like we had a choice about it!

At my old school (before secondary school) there was one boy who used to come up to me and ask me questions about my acne and why I had it. I knew the boy quite well and knew it wasn't in his nature to be curious and ask people things like that outright and if he was really into the science and stuff he would ask his parents or whoever he goes to. The real reason he did it was out of spite, mainly just to wind me up.

People have no idea how damaging to someone's confidence that can be. I can remember countless nights of crying myself to sleep in bed because no matter what I did it only got worse. I sound like I'm being really dramatic but it is one of the things that really gets to me.

At the moment it covers my torso and when I am changing for sport at school I turn around and find people looking at all the massive white heads covering my chest, back and shoulders. I end up changing in the toilet if I can or huddled up in a corner hoping no one will notice me.

It is the worst feeling.

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Birthday Struggle

Ok so tiny problem:

I'm turning 13 in November and I'm not sure what to do for a new username. I won't be a tween any more so my username will be irrelevant. If you have any ideas please help.

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Party time!

Hello guys,

Next week my dad is having his 50th birthday party so I thought I would do a post on party planning and preparation.

I've been helping my mum with the surprises and I must admit it feels really good to be able to do something really nice for somebody who deserves it, some of the special surprises we have planned for him are:

A flashmob with his special song
Personalised Cake Pops
A poem written by moi

Planning surprises for somebody is quite hard because you can't ask for their opinion and you have to betray their trust to the point where they can get so suspicious it makes you fell really guilty.

Anyway other things you can do are:

Smuggle in friends and family they didn't think could come
Make the whole party a surprise
Give them a massive present they weren't expecting

And although it depends on the opinion of the person they will most likely grateful no matter what you do.

Outfit planning is always really fun when it comes to parties.

For this occasion we had no theme so I went with a beautiful geometric and rose patterned dress by Ted Baker:

I'm going to curl my hair and add a rose hair clip.

For make up I am going to wear a Kate Moss lipstick in the shade 45 and a subtle rose gold eyeshadow from my revolution iconic smokey palette.

If you were at all inspired by this post please comment and post pictures in the comment section down below.

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Break ups and Shake ups

First day of primary school, close your eyes and imagine your four year old self. Sit up and stretch out yawning. Packing your bag with everything you definitely don't need for school and walking with your mum into your class room.

Break time...

"Hello, my name is Red, can we be friends?"

That is exactly how I got my best friend for the next 7 years (I'm pretty sure you will have similar scenarios).

We were inseparable for years.

Now I haven't seen her in 3 months and we live on the same road, our parents are best friends and our siblings go to the same school.

When doing exams for secondary school we split and I don't think we'll ever come close to feeling as we did again.

We haven't changed much but it's the little things that separate us.

Is this normal?

If you have ever had anything like this please share it in the comments below and give me some advice.

She is the same person:

Same hobbies
Same habits
Same appearance

And yet I feel as if I'm talking to a completely different person and we don't connect anymore.
I have tried reaching out to her but she doesn't respond,

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Too Cool for School

My school is really posh and in London so its uniform rules are really strict. They have nothing against makeup, but you don't want to look like you're trying to hard.

Even if your school has strict cosmetic rules there a few easy fixes which really help to enhance your beauty.

1. Clear Mascara: For eyelashes and eyebrows.
2. Tinted or nude lipstick/lip liner/lip balm/lip gloss.
3. Pale blusher to add some warmth to your face.
4. Pale eyeshadow, matte or metallic. Be really careful not to pack it on.
5. Concealer. This is an absolute lifesaver. It can cover blemishes and red patches and doesn't look as thick as concealer.
6. If you feel like adding a finishing touch you may want to put on a little silver eyeliner to brighten your eyes.

When getting your school uniform try to get stuff that fits well. If that isn't possible (in my case my mum wanted to save money on uniform and got stuff that would last) you can do several things.

1. Tuck in your shirt, it makes it stick to your figure and flatters you body shape.
2. Roll up your cuffs.
3. Tighten to elastic on your bottoms or get a belt.
4. Get fishnet or lace or long socks.

If your school is really strict you can use your hair as an outlet. Use colourful hair bands, ties and elastics. If your school doesn't like jewellery then you can use them as bracelets. You can curl your hair, straighten it and plait it. Whatever takes your fancy.

Another way to accessorise is with earrings. You can get loss of different studs and colours. Just make sure you have a case to put them in and loads of spare backs.

Then you can pick a backpack that is both stylish and practical. Or you can put loads of key rings and badges on your school branded bag.

Decorating planners and books is another option that most people may think looks tacky, but it can add a lot of class to your books.

You can get some really nice sports bags, such as the ones from Victoria secret. Also keep some deodorant to stick in your bag.


is it me or does anyone else find summer holidays boring. It's great when you go on holiday but when you spend four weeks at home with nothing to do it gets quite boring.

Anyway hope this helped with your back to school plans.

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Ambitions and Attainable Ambitions

As humans we all go through a phrase at at least one point in our lives. At the moment I am going through several, most of them embarrassing, but because this is anonymous (and I'm pretty sure nobody reads it) I will share them with you.

My Current Phases:

• Dip dying or highlighting my hair in blond with an ashy tone.
• Disney Channel (sorry I know it's soooo dorky).
• Being too organised with my getting back to school stuff, binders, filing folders, e.c.t....
• Blogging (obviously).
• Gymnastics.
• Learning a new language (Spanish in my case).

Some of your ambitions (phrases) are temporary and some are for life. Pursue them as much as possible to try and live a fulfilled life.

Some of them are probably impossible or prohibited by your parents, so try respect that because at the end of the day they pay for your birthday present.

This blog is very short, sorry about that but I'm not really sure what else I could write.

My last blog was slightly more personal, a fight with my siblings. If anyone reads this please tell me if you liked it or not, that would be really appreciated.

The comments are set so that you don't need a gmail account to comment.

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Ugghh Siblings.....

Hiya,

Right now I hate my brother, I was going to blog about phases but now I'm going to blog about them.

I have both my parents living together and I am the eldest of three (girl, boy, girl).

My brother is very manipulative of my little sister who he is four years older than.

Mum told me to go downstairs and keeping eye on my younger siblings. I went downstairs and they were silently fighting. Every time my sister tried to whimper, squeal or call out for help he would pinch her nose and cover her mouth. I sat down on the sofa and my brother lashed out at me kicking me in the side and glaring at me.
They continued to fight until I started shouting at them to stop. They both then started telling me to turn the volume of my iPad down, my little sister parroting everything my brother said. Bearing in mind that the tv was on full volume and my iPad on two, I turned my iPad up. My little sister out of poor judgement then decided to attack me head butting my chin and making me bite my tongue. I then loose my cool and start shouting. My mum then comes crashing down the stairs having no idea what happened and starts shouting at me.

• My brother is the middle child and the only boy so he tends to get his way a lot and shows off about it when parents aren't watching.
• He thinks he's one of the cooler kids at school (he's not).
• He has school exams coming up and has to have a tutor, he plays up and deliberately fails his homework to get attention. That also means that if you want to do anything it's: no I'm busy, your brother is working, just do it yourself.

Did I do something wrong and does anyone know how to make better relationships with your siblings? Please comment below!!!!(also because I want to know if anybody actually reads this??)

Blogging off xx

Disclaimer: I will change small details of the events and name to nicknames if recurring person or just call them he/she/it.